I do not post since a while, because in all honesty, I don't feel in a good mood for it... Since few day I wake up every morning, "grumpy", "mentally drained" and with no motivation nor goals for the day ahead of me. Overall, I am in a negative set of mind... Hopefully it will pass soon !Why a negative set of mind? Well for many reasons but here few of them:
Boredom, low season/slow business, "pissed of" about the assassin rate exchange of the US dollars (our main business "economic" currency in st Martin), everyday routine, nothing to do, contemplating change of career (for the reasons named here before...), annoying and destructive construction site in front of our house (with all the inconvenient it includes...), thinking about moving out of Oyster Pond residential area but no idea where to go, need a break ( a real one, not like the ones I had over the last year...), too hot and humid, slow Internet connection, etc, etc...
I passed some of them, overall I am having "bad hair days", and do not see any positivism coming towards me in close future. I hope all of you, readers, are feeling better and specially more positive than I feel.
9 comments:
Honestly...I am grumpy as well.
Frank always tells me ...
I need something to do and something to look forward to.
Finding something to do is easy but looking forward to something is more important. Find or plan something in the near future that you will look forward to and see if it helps your feelings.
Respectfully, Wendy
Grumpy?
Philippe, you and Wendy are feeling grumpy? You both sound like me, except I am trying hard NOT to feel grumpy.
But some..most?.... days living in SXM is not easy.
I have some of the same problems you do, Philippe...
I'm bored.
Business sucks!
too hot!
slow internet!
I do have something planned though that I am looking forward to. Next week Dee and I are taking off for a week to Barbados and St. Lucia, and we will spend a few days with our daughter in Barbados.
Why don't you and William plan a short trip?
School vacation is next week, isn't it? Take a trip for a few days to Nevis or St. Kitts maybe. Or even Anguilla or St. Barth's isn't bad.. Just getting off the island for a few days might help.
Barbara
And people think we are living in paradise...LOL!... That's true, William also always tell me to look forward to something and to try to stay busy, because he knows that if I am not busy, I am thinking too much and it gets worse.... A short trip somewhere could be good, but with the business (stock with it....GRRRR) it's not easy, we already closed in August, so... I have to try to be creative and find a project, you are both right, I'll try to do my best...
Philippe
May I suggest something Philippe. Although I don't know you well enough, I have found that the following helped me when my father passed away 6 years ago and it recently helped a woman I work with IMMENSELY who was going to therapy but stopped after I gave her the CD to listen to...Her total outlook on life changed and helped her to get through her days with a smile. It is a simple meditation CD that I listen to when I get depressed, feeling low, or nervous. If you are interested, I can try to send it to you to listen to. It takes nothing more than putting aside about 15-20 minutes each day to listen to it. Very soothing and is actually amazing.
In fact, my husband Rick who was getting severe headaches from tension at work and TMJ (a dental issue), to the point of tears and non-work, finally listened to it after I almost threw it at him. He listened to it and the headaches stopped immediately. In fact he had a smile on his face for the rest of the week (which is totally not like him-lol). AND he admitted that this was the best thing he had ever experienced. Let me know if you're interested.
Best regards,
Vicki (Sca2la)
Hi Philippe. I also suffer from grumps on occasion, with me it is normally because I've allowed myself to get bogged down mentally in my undone to-do lists. I don't really have good advice, but I do have lots of good wishes - I hope you'll pull out of those feelings soon. All the best, Jess
Vcki
a meditation CD is an excellent idea.
I have used them in the past and they can really mellow you out and make you feel better.
Barbara
Grumpy is part of the human condition from time to time. I agree that you need something to look forward to, even a short-term goal.
I don't know if your down in the dumps, re-thinking your life and career has anything to do with your mom's death (and I don't mean to get quite so personal, but I read your blog about her), but I can tell you that the first year after losing a parent is rough. My father died when I was 25 after a brief illness. I went into survival mode for three to six months. The real pain didn't hit me personally for almost nine months, when "regular" life began again. The good news is that things really do get better, as impossible as it seems.
Keep going about your daily life, high season will be here before you know it. Pick up a new hobby or plan a short overnight trip somewhere away... it won't necessarily change your mood permanently, but even a brief pick me up will help. Good luck and I hope your optimism returns soon.
So, I write this again, being that the first post didn't take due to a power outage....You DO have something to look forward to. I am on vacation for 12 glorious days where during this time you will experience the following: my daily bad singing to the animals to get them excited before the numerous walks on the beach, my singing lessons to Caramel and Piccola as they sing along with me with their usual grrr grrr grrr and woof woof woofs as you're trying to do something...the constant playful teases to frustration levels where you wish I was at work...sound familiar????, and the playful conversations where I intentionally make you repeat yourself because of me "not hearing" you the first 2 times....sound familiar? and those neverending questions-"can you help me with the computer because I can't do it and don't understand"? lol and the best part to come is the neverending days together of those quiet times where it's just nice to know we have time to be together again...I bet you can't wait...ugh! lol lol lol lol lol
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